I’ve been dealing with suicidal thoughts since I was about seven. They’re not something that just comes and goes occasionally. Unless I’m actively distracting myself, they’re always there in the background, pushing into my thoughts. The moment things go quiet, they come back. It feels…
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Hallucinations
It came to my attention just a few minutes prior to writing this, that a dear friend of mine is starting to experience auditory and visual hallucinations. I myself have been experiencing them, at least auditory, since I was at least seven years old. It’s…
Grandma
I know I haven’t posted in a while, but life has gotten in the way in a big way. Grandma kicked me out, moved back in with mom, a friend passed away, ended powerful friendships and altogether I’ve been learning time management in ways that…
The Coveted Clock
As we get older, I am beginning to find one issue rather annoying; and that’s that we seem to have less and less time to play the games we enjoy OR find the time to discover new hobbies. This is despite, for many of us,…
Negative Conversation
I am nothing if not a person of principle, one of many is that I do not speak about someone’s negative aspects or failures without mentioning how we can learn from it, how we might prevent it and what have you. I do not consider…
Brain Sweat
Every once in a while, I struggle a lot with a particular problem. This might come off as arrogant but I assure you it isn’t, and that’s my brain isn’t stimulated enough with non-mechanical knowledge. It isn’t stimulated with knowledge that goes beyond simple memorization….
Lgbtree and Life
I may have mentioned this in the past, I may have not. Who knows at this point, I’m now 34 and the fog of ages is starting to kick in. However at some point I had an idea and another idea ad infintum, I finally…
Glum
I’ve been fighting it for a long while, but my mood hasn’t been quite the same as it used to be. I’m afraid to see what is right in front of me, walking around the issue- trying not to pay any attention to it. I…
Complacency
There’s something about procrastination. It can make you dislike yourself more than you would otherwise. It makes me dislike myself more than I would otherwise. I do not like my chest as much as I would otherwise, but I cannot be bothered to shave it…